It’s 3 in the morning and I can’t fall asleep. I’ve been sleeping easily the past week and it’s been a while since I am awake at this time. I’m telling myself to stay calm and not panic or anything but my mind suddenly decide to think about everything that can go wrong. Or it’s just reminding myself about small important details that I need to quickly get sorted out. As I’m beginning to feel a sense of worry, I’m feeling more nervous. 4 days more and it’s getting real.
All I want to do right now is to either run away from every person I know, to a place where they can never see me again or to just wrap myself up with the blanket and disappear for a very long time.
I don’t want to care anymore neither do I want to love. Caring too much apparently has led me to upset others. And this upsets me. I’ve been taught to be selfless and care for others but you can never do so to everyone.
In the end I’ll always wonder, are you going to miss me when I’m gone?
Feeling some discomfort tonight
A range of emotions flushing within
And I can’t find the right words in sight
to what the eyes have seen.
Sleeping At Last’s Light
In love with the current songs especially this. And in times like this, I need some kind of assurance. That everything is worth it at the end. Bless you, those who read this.
Peace and mercy be upon you.
You’re the only One that we need. Grant us the patience to withstand all the emotions and trials. May we also see the clear blue sky, glowing green trees and Mr BrightSun shining with all the birds soaring up high again.
May we all be blessed, take care people.