“Such a controversial game. What amazed me was the reaction on the substitution. To the fans who booed, that wasn’t nice at all. You don’t go around saying you’re an Arsenal fan but insulted and humiliated a player and especially the boss who’s still part of the team, like that. That just proves a point, it’s a shame for you to be a gooner.”

Shouldn’t we be supporting instead of booing? There we are screaming in joy when we win, yes of course we want to win in every game (who wants to lose?). But then again, there you are spitting out such harsh remarks and gives a shameful reaction when we couldn’t offer the best. Is becoming a fan of a football team consist of just winning games and trophies? Fuck you to those who reacted that way earlier and supports a team without realizing there’d always be defeat. You don’t run away from it, except if our team is The Invicibles. And what surprise me the most, always, is that why does our team receive the most criticism when we lost any game? Compare us to any of the teams in the lower part of the table or as close as to Liverpool and Chelsea. Why isn’t any of their flaws being mentioned or rather emphasized much? Our team has consistently been in the top four since Wenger took over, won the league/ FA cup titles and create players like Henry, Bergkamp, Viera, Cesc, Nasri and many more. If it just happens that ladyluck isn’t on our side this season and we couldn’t finish it off, so be it.

This may get a little emotional but I’m really upset to be thinking of Arshavin’s position right now. I wonder how he’s taking this whole pressure and remarks from fans. I know he’s been in poor form lately but hey, if you had even watch the premier league this season since the start, you’ll understand why. He hasn’t been starting and rarely got the chance to play during the first half of the league. What’s more, even if he played he only got in for not the whole 90minutes. You can’t expect perfection, there’s no such thing. And oh, as much as I love Robin, I never thought that he would reacted that way about the replacement too. From the look of it, I guess he felt a little guilty at the end of the game. Either that, or he’s just very gutted about the wrong decision made my Wenger.

It’s just still too unbelievably selfish for that to happen. What happened at that point of time wasn’t what we needed, wasn’t what The Arsenal I know, it just wasn’t right. You want Wenger out? Find someone who can build a team so magnificent as what he had done over the last many years. I don’t see any other teams or manager who provide and gives so much to young players and create legends, treat football like how it’s meant to be and has such strong philosophy.

Just by typing all these down made me teared up. It wasn’t the fact that we lose that hurts, it’s how these fans actually call themselves a fan. So much disrespect and shame. It’s such a misery that this could leave a huge impact on me, leaving so much thoughts and feelings. Maybe I’m being too passionate but that’s how it’s usually is, isn’t it? There’s just so much for me to say but for now pardon me for all the bantering and any harsh language. I’ll need to give a hug to my Arsenal pillow tonight because that’s the closest I can get to telling the team that through thick and thin, we’ll go through together.

Victoria Concordia Crescit.

Mumford & Sons – Liar

“I know that things are broken, I know there’s too many words left unsaid”

I know it’s tough for some of my loved ones out there. But you’ll get through it, just like how I did. This song suits this calm night after an alone lovely Saturday’s afternoon I had. Spending a spontaneous trip in the museum for hours, walking under the heavy rain, hiding myself in between huge shelfs of books in the library and strolling along the street eating yogurt and witnessing how occupied each and everyone around me were. It got me reminded of the time back when I could spent countless of hours striding back and forth at the memorable routes. Those were the only thing I was left with when my past left me but now that it’s been almost three years, those were just another memories buried in my mind.

Been a wonderful weekend so far, gong xi fa cai!

This inspiring video always gets me. The messages inside it should serve as a daily reminder for all of us.

“If you are looking for the love of your life, stop. They will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.” This.

For the tired souls, for the heartbroken, for the one who have suicidal thoughts, for one who thinks life revolves around only one thing and for those who have to face a lot of challenges. There’s more in life than just what you’re facing right now. Go out, do the craziest thing but don’t forget yourself, see the good in the bad, live like it’s your last, make your dreams happen but always remember, keep the faith. 

It’s been a long week, well more like three long weeks. Feeling drained out but trying to feel and think the positivity in what I’m experiencing everyday. No matter what happens, life goes on. Can’t wait for tomorrow to end then off to 4 days break. Oh before I end this, gotta quote down another one of the messages I really like from the video. “Travel often. Getting lost will help you find yourself.” It’s true, isn’t it?

Have a good friday loves, may peace be upon you (:

Le Grandeur Palm Resort at Senai, Johor. Taken during the staff retreat many months ago actually. I know it’s like a super late update but feel like I have to add a little more colors in this space. By the way I quite like the place there, very nice actually. Ps. don’t mind blurred or nonsense pictures of me in it.

Henry said he feels like it was a dream. Trust me, I’m pretty sure all of us gooners felt like it was a dream at that moment, it was too good and real to be true to see a legend like him being there. It’s like bringing past to the future. It  was like orgasm (pardon me for the not so nice word). How many millions of us erupted like we’ve won the league title and witnessing his goal celebration with style. Epic and showing in slow motion made it emotional, plus what’s not, he hugged Arsene. That period there, gave an immediate reminiscence of Robin’s celebration after scoring against Barca last season at our home ground. An exact copy of moment captured, beautifully. 

However, of course let’s not forget the other key players’ contribution in the game last night. Arshavin looked like he was where we last remember him back when he scored 4 goals against Liverpool and that winning goal against Barca in the CL. If he continues to play like that, I’m sure it’ll give me hope that Arsene won’t sell him off. I’ve always love him as a player. Next would be Oxlade, whom all of us know is going to be immense in time to come. His countless effort has prove that he may well be put in the first team regularly. Last but not least, the main engine behind our dominating side; Mikel Arteta. Given the captain armband, he took it so well and with so much poise and class, he shows how it’s suppose to be done. Yes he did fired weak shots here and there but he deserve so much credit for everything he has contribute in building up our current form ever since he came to the club. He, I feel is the man of the match for last night actually. I’ve so much love and respect for him. So here’s the highlight of last night’s match. 

Henry’s return just proves that form is temporary, class is permanent. He, a true legend of The Arsenal. Everything about the match and well, the club, is phenomenal. Alright let’s embrace this wonderful moment and hope the second half of the Premier League will be an exciting one. Manchester City, Man United, Chelsea, Spurs? Bring it on.

Brilliant video. This guy here just makes us envy his experience from all around the globe. Someday, I’m going to book a ticket, pack my bag and travel to my dream destinations. 

My younger cousin is getting married later. She’s as young as the time when I was still taking my O levels. I watched her grow from a toddler up to when she was deemed to be a teenager. Two years ago when our relative got married, I remember both of us had a talk outside under the bright lit moon. The conversation was merely about our lives and how things were. None of us expected that two years later, she’ll be the one getting hitched. Marriage is suppose to be a joyous occasion but I’m trying to absorb and accepting the facts of reality. That still doesn’t dampen my  mood of being very delighted and happy for her :’) 

Being surrounded with these festive occasions and where getting married seems like a weekend subject, I can’t help but ponder about my fate each time I’m attending them. Few years ago, I was planning out how I’d wanted my life to be when I reach this age. It’s nowhere near. I don’t know what God has for me but deep within me, I’m glad about how much pain I had withstand and recover from the men he pulled out from my life. What one of my friend had shared with me yesterday made me realized that all of these are for my own good. Someway or another, He protected me. 

It’s always at that moment when a change happen that you don’t realize the gratification. Because it’s only after you had overcome and give in to acceptance, you’ll then know the reason. 

I’m going to share with you a song. It brings such great feeling of serenity.

Maher Zain – The Chosen One

Alright I should be sleeping now, am so drained out. Gotta wake up real early later for the wedding! I hope this long weekend is a blissful one for all of you. May peace be upon you.

Let’s start off to how early my day started today. Woke up early in the morning to catch the Arsenal’s match, pretty much contented that I get to witness the win from the gunners To make it a little brighter, I took a day off. In coincidental, I needed it to recharge myself from the past many days of over-working my body and well, I woke up later in the day feeling horrible from yesterday’s migraine. Despite that, spending my entire afternoon in the library and running some errands in the neighborhood has never felt better, on a weekday. 

Amidst these redundant information, I just witness the most heartbreaking documentary that’s ever been made. I ought to thank one of my knowledgeable friend who has been sharing about this issue. Only when I watch it myself, I realize how cruel one can be. Innocent people being killed, children as young as babies being victims of this inhumane act. What lies on that land, only those experiencing it would understand the pain. How it feels like to be sleeping in fear of being attack, everyday. Now, compare your troubles with theirs. Reflect how much difference there are. I urge all of you to watch this. Such an eye-opener. Watching it is the closest experience you’ll ever get to bring yourself in that surreal situation.

Tears of Gaza

Thank you to the ones who made this movie possible, the courageous men and women. And to http://occupiedpalestine.wordpress.com for sharing the sources and information. I would just like to share it in here. Just like how the blog had mentioned, “that should be watched by every American, to see how Israel spends our taxes. Every European should watch it, to see the true face of Israel. It should be viewed by every Arab, to renew our resolve not to allow a racist nation to wipe Palestine and her children from the map and from history.” and “I hope this film will be shown throughout the world, across university campuses, communities, organizations and living rooms. Take this not just as a review, but a call to action.”

In between the despairing actions, my heart pinched in pain. How ignorance all of us has been, how much we’re unaware of what’s happening to our fellow Muslims. The only words that explains the emotions for this misery are tears and prayers. Perhaps what is most questionable for this affliction is why isn’t there any help offered? Plus many others. Where do the world’s management priorities lies? What are the world spending on? Where’s the humanity’s rights? Are we spending our lives meaningfully? And the list goes on. 

The only help you can probably give is your du’a. May Allah protect them insyaAllah, Amin.

May you have a blissful day, may peace be upon you. 

There’s just so much for us to give, but how much can we receive?

Rachael Yamagata

Have blissful days ahead, may peace be upon you.

Far from this, I’m trying to keep myself sane by spending quality time with the children. Spend whatever remaining time I have with them. They never fail to make my day, they always brighten up my day I swear. Darn now I’m getting all sentimental with these emotions in the midst of me listening to Ólafur Arnalds – Ljósið right at this current moment. How I wish I’m in some far away country full of greeneries, mountains and cottages.

Amidst of these whole chaos and rushing thoughts, I’ve been missing a single soul. Well, not really missing but more of like wondering how has he been since we last kept in touch. It’s weird on how those deep conversations in the distant moments we had, are etched so profoundly in my mind. What I learnt was far more than what I had discovered. And how he could make everything seems alright with the endless encouraging words. Haven’t heard from him for some time now. I still do remember his last words “Talk to you some other time“ attached with an emoticon. Since then, I hasn’t heard a news from the distant being. Here in silence, I’m hoping he’s doing well and not freezing out there.

Nonetheless, time still moves on. I guess I better stop here and continue the rush through the weekend. May Allah bless us all, may peace be upon you.